"One Day..."

On August 11, 2012 I wrote down a list for myself. It had no deadline, but it was also not a suggestion. It was a list of things that I was demanding of myself. I wanted to build myself up to be the type of person this list talked about.

But I forgot about this list once I came home. I forgot it existed, until today when I was thinking about all the things I have allowed to resonate within me. All of the lies I have told myself, all the assumptions I've made...I forgot.

So, now I need that reminder and more than that I need to be held accountable to this list, because I still want to be the type of person that is on this list. I need to open myself up and pray for God to change me into her. For God to shape me into her.

So, here it goes:

One day...

I will stop comparing myself to others.

One day...

I will stop looking at myself as a mistake, and instead as something made with purpose.

One day...

I will believe in myself as much as those who love me do.

One day...

I will stop looking for "him" and instead let "him" find me.

One day...

I will find something worth writing about.

One day...

I will figure out how to interpret the signs.

One day...

I will dance like there is no one watching.

One day...

I will believe those who believe in me.

One day...

I will stop looking for approval.

One day..

I will see myself through God's eyes and not my own.

And one day...

I will be fearless.